Now when I look back..

Now when I look back

there are only calls unanswered,

texts not replied back to

and every attempt made

to hold on to you tighter

was heartlessly crushed.

 

 

I was a fool

I spun my dreams around you.

I was ignorant

of the obvious.

I was in love

and believed

things could be right.

 

Now when I look back

I laugh at my own thoughts.

Now when I look back

I judge my actions

and question my wisdom.

Now when I look back

I think how you never

looked back at me.

 

And it was a while after which

I finally put the pen down.

the pen that I believed

would write our story.

The ink had run dry

and my fingers were too tired.

 

Now when i look at you

I see you as lonely as ever,

your glistening with pain,

as sad as ever,

you’re like a small kid

trying hard to fit into the game.

 

Now I can no longer hold your hand

and hug you tight,

come close and whisper

everything is going to be alright.

But every now and then

I look at you from a distance

and whisper a prayer for you

and allow a sigh to fade away

into the silence.

 

 

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